7:50 a.m.
I began the morning already planning to give up and fail. My hall was having a meeting, and they were all going to CiCi's. I hate going out to dinner, especially with people I do not know very well. I have a stomach disorder that especially likes to act up when I am nervous. With that being said situations where I have to rely on someone for a ride, as opposed to being able to leave whenever I want if I get sick, I tend to not want to go. I decided I was not going to go, but then I was reminded about my project and how I was not to say no to anything. So I decided I had to suck it up and go.
I began the morning already planning to give up and fail. My hall was having a meeting, and they were all going to CiCi's. I hate going out to dinner, especially with people I do not know very well. I have a stomach disorder that especially likes to act up when I am nervous. With that being said situations where I have to rely on someone for a ride, as opposed to being able to leave whenever I want if I get sick, I tend to not want to go. I decided I was not going to go, but then I was reminded about my project and how I was not to say no to anything. So I decided I had to suck it up and go.
Schedule:
6:00 p.m. Meet for Hallway Dinner
Then I went to my New Testament class. While there my teacher asked me if I was okay. Then I began to wonder. Am I required to say yes? When do I draw the line? If I say yes and I am not okay, I am lying which is immoral. But what if I say yes, even if I am not okay, and it creates me to convince myself I am okay and therefore become okay, is it worth the immorality? Make sense? Haha. I hope it does. There is a lot going on around my mind so this may not make sense, but I hope it does. I decided that it really did not matter because I always say I am okay whether I am or not, so nothing is different. Plus, let's be honest we ask that question never expecting someone to say no. Granted my teacher asked, "Are you okay?", but what he really meant was, "How are you?" It's become our way of saying "Hi" but in an extended way. Sometimes people pass each other so prepared for the usual, "Good" response that they don't even stick around to hear it. They walk by saying "How are you?", and before you can respond they're already gone. So why do we ask if we really don't care? What happens one day if someone decides to be honest and tell us they're not okay? Do we complain, angry that they are taking up our time? I mean "Time means much" right? But "People mean more". So as a result I concluded less on how I was going to respond, and more on how I was going to ask. The next time I ask the question, "How are You?" I am going to stick around long enough hear the answer.
8:46 a.m.
I was walking out of New Testament and back to my room as usual. Behind me were two guys of which I never turned around to see who they were. They were talking to each other, and I overheard one of them say, "You be thuggin' and flaggin' on the weekend, but then on Sunday you be like, 'Ahhh' (in an angelic voice). " I laughed, for two reasons. One, just at the sentence alone. But two because the boy had it wrong. They were discussing a relationship with Jesus. I am not really sure if it was their specific relationship, or someone else's relationship. They were trying to say that they did whatever they wanted, but on Sunday they spent time with God and praised Him, and that kept them 'good with God'. That's not true. That's living a lie. You have to have a relationship with God that goes day by day and affects every situation and decision, not just the ones you make on Sunday. God is not Sunday. God is everyday. I thought to myself, "I should put that on 'Overheard at Lee'. This is a page on Facebook for my University, Lee University. In consists of quotes made by staff, professors, students, and basically anyone and everyone. they usually have some sort of humorous behavior. I told myself no because I was afraid. I was afraid they would recognize it, and hate me. I was afraid it wasn't funny. I was afraid of many stupid unimportant things. I thought to myself, do I have to say yes to my thoughts? I know, weird question, right? I determined it depended on the thought. If it was something I was scared of or had a possibility of an opportunity, then yes. But if it was a thought that went along the lines of, "Am I stupid?" Obviously I don't want to say, "yes". So I decided that I had to put it up. So I did. Here is proof.
8:46 a.m.
I was walking out of New Testament and back to my room as usual. Behind me were two guys of which I never turned around to see who they were. They were talking to each other, and I overheard one of them say, "You be thuggin' and flaggin' on the weekend, but then on Sunday you be like, 'Ahhh' (in an angelic voice). " I laughed, for two reasons. One, just at the sentence alone. But two because the boy had it wrong. They were discussing a relationship with Jesus. I am not really sure if it was their specific relationship, or someone else's relationship. They were trying to say that they did whatever they wanted, but on Sunday they spent time with God and praised Him, and that kept them 'good with God'. That's not true. That's living a lie. You have to have a relationship with God that goes day by day and affects every situation and decision, not just the ones you make on Sunday. God is not Sunday. God is everyday. I thought to myself, "I should put that on 'Overheard at Lee'. This is a page on Facebook for my University, Lee University. In consists of quotes made by staff, professors, students, and basically anyone and everyone. they usually have some sort of humorous behavior. I told myself no because I was afraid. I was afraid they would recognize it, and hate me. I was afraid it wasn't funny. I was afraid of many stupid unimportant things. I thought to myself, do I have to say yes to my thoughts? I know, weird question, right? I determined it depended on the thought. If it was something I was scared of or had a possibility of an opportunity, then yes. But if it was a thought that went along the lines of, "Am I stupid?" Obviously I don't want to say, "yes". So I decided that I had to put it up. So I did. Here is proof.
and four people liked it :).
9:55 a.m.
Schedule:
5:45 p.m. Hall Meeting (Schedule change)
Things to Do This Week:
*Convince someone that they should try being confined to a wheelchair for 30 days. (Any takers?)
*Learn "Tears of Saints" on the Guitar
*Apply to CVS
Later in Afternoon
I went to dinner with my friends at 5:00 p.m. I lost track of time and ended up missing the time we were supposed to meet for the hall dinner. So I didn't go. (Fail number one) However, my friends conveniently asked me to join them on their daily walk. So of course, I said yes. And during dinner my friend's roommate who is involved with SLC asked me to attend the "Blue Like Jazz" screening. Once again, I said yes.
Schedule:
6:00 p.m. Go on Walk
7:00 p.m. Blue Like Jazz
Things to Do This Week:
*Convince someone that they should try being confined to a wheelchair for 30 days. (Any takers?)
*Learn "Tears of Saints" on the Guitar
*Apply to CVS
I went on their walk, and surprisingly it felt great. I was able to convince them to give a destination. They usually just walk aimlessly down a straight road until they feel like turning around. That thought made me unmotivated, so I asked to get a destination. So we chose CVS. We walked there and back, and by the time we got back we had to get to "Blue Like Jazz".
Choosing to go to "Blue Like Jazz" was my best decision today. I am a huge movie fan, but for some reason I did not want to go to "Blue Like Jazz. I am so glad I had to go because it was great! I loved the movie!
SPOILER ALERT!
The movie was all about, Don. Don was a teenager about to embark on the college life. He was close to your average baptist kid. He attended church, and even assisted one of the pastors. His father was a drunk who eventually left his mother. He worked at a factory with his friend Jordan that produced cups of grape juice for churches to use for communion. He had his plan. He was going to attend Trinity Baptist. His father took his education into his own hands, and decided to enroll him at Reed where he believed Don would not be "brain washed" and would receive a great education he deserves. Don tells his father he is not going to Reed.
However, one day during a service Don realized his mom and his pastor were having sex. So he grew angry, and decided to go to Reed.
His first day there he goes to the bathroom where he is joined by two girls, one decides to pee in the urinal next to him. He later meets her again, and decides to sit next to her in class where she reveals to him that she is a lesbian. He develops a great relationship with her. Lauryn informs him that he should become a "closeted" christian because Christians are not very well respected at Reed. So he does. In class he denies God, and creatively the very next morning he wakes up to his alarm that sounds like a rooster crowing. This is to relate him to Peter who denies God three times before the rooster crows the next morning. He began to drink, swear, and trash talk God.
He decides to join a club, and after trying many different ones he settles on a club that basically stands up against wrong things. So they dressed up as robots and invaded a cooperate book store where they shouted that the incorporation was "telling people what to read". This is where he meets a girl named Penny, of whom he had very briefly previously met. Don begins to fall in love with Penny.
Don also meets a very colorful man who is always dressed as a pope. People come to him and "confess their sins". Don indirectly discovers that the pope was sexually abused by a priest as a young child, and therefore hates religion but respects those who are able to strongly believe in a God that "does not exist". Don and the pope pull a prank on a local church where they put a blow-up condom on the churches steeple, and hung a banner that reads "Don't let these people reproduce." Don discovers this is Penny's church, and she becomes angry with him. Don gets a call from his mother who informs him that she discovered she is pregnant with his pastor's child. His pastor is married to another woman. Don grows very angry, and takes everything that he has from church and barges in on a service at Penny's church. He then throws everything on the stage of the church. The preacher asked what he was doing, and he said he was returning some things. He then threw his cell phone in a bucket of water. Penny picked up the phone and fixed it. When his mother called she answered and figured out what was going on. Penny convinces Don to talk to his mother sharing about how she had deserted her mother who was schizophrenic, and how much she regretted it. In the end Don gets crowned pope by the student who dresses as a pope. He then gains the power of being the one that people confess to. As a ritual the student formerly known as the pope confessed to Don, but he wasn't serious. He confesses that he stole a virgin's condom. So instead, Don confesses to him. He tells him that he's sorry the priest sexually abused him. He was sorry that he misrepresented God. He confessed that no matter where he went God was there. He made this incredibly magnificent, evangelical speech that can only be truly experienced when watching the movie that explains the love of God, but more importantly the human's journey of faith in believing in God. The movie ends magnificently in this way. Him speaking about how amazing God is.
However, one day during a service Don realized his mom and his pastor were having sex. So he grew angry, and decided to go to Reed.
His first day there he goes to the bathroom where he is joined by two girls, one decides to pee in the urinal next to him. He later meets her again, and decides to sit next to her in class where she reveals to him that she is a lesbian. He develops a great relationship with her. Lauryn informs him that he should become a "closeted" christian because Christians are not very well respected at Reed. So he does. In class he denies God, and creatively the very next morning he wakes up to his alarm that sounds like a rooster crowing. This is to relate him to Peter who denies God three times before the rooster crows the next morning. He began to drink, swear, and trash talk God.
He decides to join a club, and after trying many different ones he settles on a club that basically stands up against wrong things. So they dressed up as robots and invaded a cooperate book store where they shouted that the incorporation was "telling people what to read". This is where he meets a girl named Penny, of whom he had very briefly previously met. Don begins to fall in love with Penny.
Don also meets a very colorful man who is always dressed as a pope. People come to him and "confess their sins". Don indirectly discovers that the pope was sexually abused by a priest as a young child, and therefore hates religion but respects those who are able to strongly believe in a God that "does not exist". Don and the pope pull a prank on a local church where they put a blow-up condom on the churches steeple, and hung a banner that reads "Don't let these people reproduce." Don discovers this is Penny's church, and she becomes angry with him. Don gets a call from his mother who informs him that she discovered she is pregnant with his pastor's child. His pastor is married to another woman. Don grows very angry, and takes everything that he has from church and barges in on a service at Penny's church. He then throws everything on the stage of the church. The preacher asked what he was doing, and he said he was returning some things. He then threw his cell phone in a bucket of water. Penny picked up the phone and fixed it. When his mother called she answered and figured out what was going on. Penny convinces Don to talk to his mother sharing about how she had deserted her mother who was schizophrenic, and how much she regretted it. In the end Don gets crowned pope by the student who dresses as a pope. He then gains the power of being the one that people confess to. As a ritual the student formerly known as the pope confessed to Don, but he wasn't serious. He confesses that he stole a virgin's condom. So instead, Don confesses to him. He tells him that he's sorry the priest sexually abused him. He was sorry that he misrepresented God. He confessed that no matter where he went God was there. He made this incredibly magnificent, evangelical speech that can only be truly experienced when watching the movie that explains the love of God, but more importantly the human's journey of faith in believing in God. The movie ends magnificently in this way. Him speaking about how amazing God is.
Such a great movie! I learned so much.
Please keep in mind there are quotation marks because these are not my words, but I also don't remember them word for word
-"In impoverished places is where you find God's presence the most"
-"If you start pushing people away they leave you alone, with your thoughts and demons"
-"Sometimes you have to watch someone else love something before you love it yourself"
SPOILER ALERT OVER
It's my first day and I have already failed, and already discovered the benefits of this project. I am in for a rough ride. See you tomorrow.
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